I would give anything for just a bit of. A bit off sanity. A bit of silence. A bit of solitude. A bit of yoga. A bit of coffee. A bit of more. Let's face it. I just want a bit of more. Looking into my children's' eyes and seeing all that I have given I suddenly become terrified. Will there be a day that I will have given everything and have nothing left to give? That is why I suppose it is so important to take time to feed the soul. You can't get water from a well if it finds it's self without water to give. I need more to give. Give and more are two words I see an awful lot in this little ramble of thoughts. That is a mother's task. To give more. Children will always hunger for more and it is our mission to not let them starve. So rarely are we told how to obtain that mysterious more that is spoken. It is something that you have to stumble upon on your own.Not unlike everything else that involves mothering a child. The pressures of knowing that you are in complete control( HA! Yeah I know. Complete control my ass but it is a nice thought.)of a smaller version of yourself. It is truly scary and wonderful all at the same time. As I am typing this I am realizing that this whole post is all rather random and lacks flow...............Perhaps I should get a case of Activia for the flow problem and develop extreme organizational skills over night? Eh how about some wine and Hafiz instead. Feed that soul. On a side note I know that the title has nothing to do with the post but hey it be a great word
This is awesome, so beautiful to read and I am so sorry I haven't been there that much this week to give you that bit.
ReplyDeleteI have felt the need for that bit, too, so let's hope next week will have more bits for both of us. :-)
And this post flows beautifully, that's what I like about it! Such real, honest feelings, and such inspiring desires surrounded by such wonderful questions.
love, Su.Sane