A New "Hat"

Flowing out of my fingers onto this computer screen are words. Not just words but thoughts from my soul. I share here on this blog my inner self. The self that not many people see. I write to put down my thoughts and then look at them and make sure that I haven't lost my mind entirely. I say entirely because I already I have lost some and I know I can never recover those pieces back. I don't really want to either. How can we want to get something back if that means that it might change the person we have become? Even if you aren't happy with who you have become who is to say that you would have been happier with what you could have become?

Looking into this concept is not exactly easy but it is something that I am trying. Like a new hat if you will. I am putting the idea on and seeing how it suits me. Does it look good if I turn this way? Does it stay on even in the most blustery of times? Perhaps if i add a feather to it. Altering the idea to make it suit me more might work. Now I have given the idea a true run through the wash and it hasn't shrunk or changed shape in any way. I have worn it through hell and back and it still looks as good as the day I came up with it. Well then I am thinking that it might be a keeper.

To be truly happy with ones self you need to not regret what has transpired in your life for it is the guts of your soul. Your past does not define you but it does show how far you have come. Your experiences in life have created the person you see in the mirror? That is complete crap of course. When you look in the mirror can you see how kind you are? Can you see the vivasciousness that is your spirit?! No you can't. Don't look in the mirror and search for yourself. Close your eyes and look into your soul. That is you. Allow your soul to breath. Make room for it. Don't keep it hidden. Share it with the world. Don't let the world keep you from sharing it.

Winter Approaches

Good night sweet sun,

You have given me beauty and light when there was none,

Shining so radiantly onto my skin,

Making me feel alive again,

Giving hope where I lacked,

Complete lust to attract,

I yearn to be selfish and steal you away,

But who am I to create a grey day,

Thank you for the gift of your love,

Now it is time to let free the mourning dove.

Autumnmmmmm

Lay down in the grass under a tree full of life. Let those blades of grass take you in. Now look up. Feel the sun shine through the leaves. Watch the light as it dances in the fall colors. Now take a deep breath. Breath in those colors. The vibrant reds rush through your body. The radiant oranges slip down your skin. The cool greens flow through you like water. The sensuality of autumn has arrived. Let it become part of you. Sink into it and open your mind.Can you feel the trees shedding their leaves? Can you taste the magic on your tongue? The taste is incredible. The taste is change.

Spot On

"Once you start to awaken, no one can ever claim you again for the old patterns. Now you realise how precious your time here is. You are no longer willing to squander your essence on undertakings that do not nourish your true self; your patience grows thin with tired talk and dead language. You see through the rosters of expectation which promise you safety and the confirmation of your outer identity. Now you are impatient for growth, willing to put yourself in the way of change. You want your work to become an expression of your gift. You want your relationship to voyage beyond the pallid frontiers to where the danger of transformation dwells. You want your God to be wild and to call you to where your destiny awaits."- John O'Donohue